“Don’t be ashamed to weep; ‘tis right to grieve. Tears are only water, and flowers, trees, and fruit cannot grow without water. But there must be sunlight also. A wounded heart will heal in time, and when it does, the memory and love of our lost ones is sealed inside to comfort us.”

— Brian Jacques, Taggerung (via quotethat)

A motherless daughter

Mar 20, 2020

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My mother passed away last year.
I did not expect her to be leaving us so soon but it was her time.
It still hurt, i still cry , and i still feel as if it was yesterday
The never ending longing and miss felt by my mother towards her late father who passed away when i was 12. Now felt by me.

My grandfather passed away when she was 39. We are five years apart when my mother died. And she never spoke of him unless we asked. Grieve is hard , there is no timeline , you can be old and still miss your parents like a little child misses them.

She had a good happy life. Loved by many. I only hear only good thing about her. At least that i know. And im glad to be able to serve her until her last moment.

Some still have tears by the mention of her name. Some avoid talking about her worried that i might feel sad. Some just sat there and listened to me.

You were a great mother i wish i could see you again. I wish i was reborned again so i can serve you again and be together again. I know you are waiting for us to be reunited. But time feel so long. Separation is hard when you are so close with them.

I wish this pain goes away. It doesnt. It never will. Until we return to Him. An alim told me, in Heaven, we meet whoever we desire. And i only want to meet her. God really test you with who you love most. And its obvious we all love her most. So dont love a thing or a person too much or you will be tested with it taken away from you to see how you will deal with it and whether or not our faith remains or loses our mind.

God please ease our pain for we dont know how. May God bless her soul and reunite us in Heaven.